Sunday, December 30, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
Thursday, December 20, 2007
My baby girl got an 80% on her test that I was so concerned for, she studied on her recess and was able to ask her friends to help her!! I emailed her teacher to let her know how concerned I was for Ya's and when she emailed me that she received and 80%, one of the highest scores in the class, everyone I work with knew how proud I was. She took responsibility seriously and succeeded!
My baby boy came home and immediately told Nana of a Math test he thinks he has done well on! Nana called me at work and suddenly I felt as though I was doing right again and that this is a phase and that "this too shall pass" I was a strong, proud mama again!
The baby is just concerned about the Christmas Party, I mean Holiday Party coming up at school tomorrow and does not get the grab bag gift exchange idea at all. No matter how many times I explained it he wanted to give his gift to one certain student. I finally told him it will go in a bag and everyone will pick and whoever gets it gets it and now I think he gets it!!
I know I told you Christmas shopping was done, remember! There was still one gift to purchase but Larry would not let me get it until Christmas was closer because "electronics go on sale right before Christmas" so I waited and now the buying is back on!! Hubby took the day off to be with me today and go get the one gift we needed and now we are almost done again!!!! This happens every year! I spend and purchase and get what we are getting for the kids and I am very very reasonable in my purchasing. Until today the two younger children had about $60 in gifts a good job on my part. I was not going to over do it! That has all changed, Daddy went shopping!! Now the gift amount is to high to admit but it is done AGAIN!! I certainly enjoyed Larry today, I am so glad he took the day off to be with me it was so good and soooooooo what I needed! I really do like spending time with him!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
I find myself asking myself these questions all the time:
Did I do to much?
Do I not do enough?
Is that punishment right?
Do they really understand how much I love them, do I show it enough?
Did I go back to work to soon or not soon enough?
Why do I explode at them at times, is that part of the reasons we are having issues right now?
How can I make them "get" responsibility?
How do I get them to communicate more, about school stuff?
I know my kids trust me, they tell me really personal stuff and we are able to talk through just about everything. But, what happened with school, is this just a phase? Will they grow out of it?
I pray for my children constantly and I pray for Larry and I as parents, I seek guidance. That should be enough right? I'm not sure if I am doing this parenting thing right and I hate not being sure! I feel so weak in strength right now, I am usually a very confident parent, but don't feel that way right now.
I just wish I had this parenting "thing" down. I follow my manual (my Bible) and try to do right all the time, and I know that I don't always do right. I have apologized to my children numerous times over the years for poor parenting skills and other times I have been confident that the way things were handled were proper and needed no apology.
How do I do this thing right, have I gone wrong or is it just a growing phase for us all?
One good thing is I know that my children feel loved and secure and they know they are watched out for and over, they know what is right and what is wrong and they know how to pray and who to seek guidance from.
I desperately want to do this parenting thing right, you know what I mean!
Anyway, everyone please, please, pleeeeeeeeeeease be very careful on the roads, leave in plenty of time and remember that arriving late is great as long as you arrive! Slow down and enjoy the season!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, December 17, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Did I mention that we road ATV's on the beach in December and I can drive fine on solid ground but I have never gone ATVin on the beach!!! Oh yes I saved it all four wheels ended up on the ground and mama was fine and lovin it!!!
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Now on to vacationing with my hubby!
Please pray for our family whil we are away from each other!
I hope my kids have a great week!
I know I will!!!
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
To let you in on a little secret, I have my own personal "what not to wear" person in my home. He has taught me what looks good and the styles that work the best for me. This person is..Yes..You guessed it.....My Hubby!!!
So this morning I set out to buy my shoes. I have limited time I have to work this afternoon. So after getting the kids on the bus I go..................
Department Store... Nothing
Another Department Store, at the mall......I found some and they are on the clearance rack..but they only have the right shoe (guess that won't work)
Back in the car, across the street to a BIG Shoe store...........Nothing
Back in the car down the way another BIG Shoe store............Nothing
Back in the car down the way to a discount department store (where I NEVER find anything).....guess what..........Nothing
Now I'm a little frustrated, Phone call from hubby comes in
H: Did you find any?
M: NO, I found one pair but they can't find the left shoe!
H: Did you go to this Department Store?
M: Yes, and I didn't find anything.
H: Did you see the wedged, black Strappy heels they have, or is it just an Internet buy
M: No, I didn't see those, are they cute?
H: I think so, I can't really tell they are on a model
M: I don't know, I don't remember seeing anything like that.
H: Well they look like they could (his conversation went elsewhere)
After hanging up with him I go back, BACK to the first Department Store and there they are!!
I think he should have just gone out and found my shoes for me, it was just tooooo much trouble and I could have been done an hour before!!
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
Every year my friend hosts a "wrapping party" and we are all supposed to bring our gifts and help each other wrap, but because I enjoy wrapping I am usually done by the time this party comes around! So I get to help wrap other's gifts! It is fun and a reason to get together, always a good time and it serves a purpose!! Instead of a Christmas Party this is what we do as friends!!
I am getting very excited and can't wait to put out Christmas Decorations, hopefully Friday will work for this!!
How do you and your friends celebrate the holidays?
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
I am the gitty,
crazy waving like crazy, picture snapping, insane mom, in the bleachers!
She is still awesome a did an awesome job!!!!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Monday, November 12, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
I am feeling much much better, still not 100% but still much better. The one thing that I did notice in between all my sleeping was how stinking grouchy I was! A real reminder that I wasn't feeling well and neither me or my body could handle anymore! I did go back in to work on Thursday and I did fine! Now I go back to work Monday morning. Not only do I need to get used to getting up in the early morning again but now I would rather sleep a little later to get through the worst part of the morning. Oh well, such as life and I will get used to days again quickly!!
I tried to move around more this weekend than I had during the week so by Saturday night when I thought I would disappear to my room to watch TV that I wanted to watch, the last thing I remember was the clock saying 9:30 and then I saw the clock this morning around 6AM. So much for watching my TV shows!! Good thing is the "off" button in my butt still works!
Friday, November 9, 2007
Nothing.....just small talk.
I couldn't wait anymore so I asked, "are you OK, is everything alright?"
her reply was "I'm fine, maybe a little sick"
"OK, if that is all it is, I hope you feel better soon"
Our conversation moves to small talk and silliness, but I can still see hurt in her eyes. All I can think is how can I help? I know that look on her face, I know that in some way I have been in her place, how do you help when someone doesn't want it?
After a while, something in our conversation brought out part of an issue or hurt that was on her mind, so I continue to listen to what is going on this young woman's life. She is a newly wed, very newly wed and should be thrilled and enjoying her new life (not always true, but what I would like to believe). She is truly hurting and feels bad that she is hurting.
My experience as a newly wed was not all peaches and roses either (my memories all come back!) We jump into marriage thinking it is going to be perfect but we need to work at perfection and sometimes it just hurts.
How many times have women been here? Feeling as though maybe we are wrong for having our feelings hurt or being upset by something that happened and not having our feelings validated?
I'm not talking about abuse or abandonment, I am talking about the part of learning to be married and how to deal with each other at first and how it hurts so bad to feel alone in a marriage even though our spouses actually feel alone also!!!
I want to jump in and fix everything for her and I can't all I can do is offer a hug and a few words of advice:
Enjoy a Date night with your Husband.
Keep close friends
Enjoy being alone with you (once in a while)
Confide in your husband, do not stop talking to him, love him enough to let him in
Your feelings are real and emotions are a gift
Sometimes husbands don't hear us the same way our friends hear us and it is OK to confide in a good friend!
As a friend to me Pray for my friend, she really is learning how to be a new wife and how to be so many things at once. I almost forgot how hard the first couple years of marriage were until I saw her face, sometimes it really hurts just to have feelings!
I know there were times I wish I could have been numb. However, later in life I am so thankful for those feelings early on and that I wasn't numb and that I didn't toughen up! Thank God
"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." (2 Cor. 12:9)
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Needless to say, I am not weighing in this week, it would not be truthful, if I lost it wouldn't be accurate if I gained it would be because I just lay around except to go to work! The goal for next week is to be able to weigh in and get back on track, feel better and even feel strong enough to workout!!!
At least I do have a Doc appt. today maybe I'll get something to get this thing gone faster!!
A little prayer would help more than anything!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Thursday, November 1, 2007
A great Halloween lots of fun, lots of family and a true feeling of community all in one night. One question.... Why doesn't anyone just hand out one piece of candy anymore? It is always a handful!! I am also guilty of this, but when and why did that change? The loot bags were too full, I'll be sharing at work!!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
My youngest is going through this nightmare thing and doesn't want to sleep alone! In our house that is not a problem! It seems no one sleeps alone, there is always someone to sleep with! My oldest has no problem sharing his bed or if Ya's wants everyone in her bed (all twin beds so far) they will go and climb in and it is though they really get better rest when they are together! I used to get worried and say "they need to sleep in their own beds" Then I got over it and decided since they really are sleeping well, let it be! It is not unusual to have someone climb in our bed in the middle of the night, like when my alarm goes off for work, I think they hear it and come down and climb in with daddy!! Daddy is a snuggler of his kids! Him and I are more of the cheek to cheek sleepers!!! Anyway back to the making me smile thing: When the kids are having trouble with sleeping or nightmares we usually tell them to pray ask God to help them, and give them good dreams, then we put a Bible under their pillow and it usually helps! My oldest boy used to sleep with his hands on his Bible under his pillow, too sweet! Ya's used to just put the Bible under her pillow and pray and sleep well! The youngest has gone up to three, 3, Bibles under the pillow of wherever he sleeps!!! We pray with him and he falls asleep praying, and he does not sleep alone!! The other night he came up with another solution: "Mommy, maybe if I put a Bible under my pillow and put what I want to dream about under my pillow with my Bible it will help". I reply "sounds like a great idea let's do that". I had no idea he was planning on getting in my bed that night and bringing a rather large, metal, model, toy airplane!! Under the pillow it goes! Sounded like a good idea and his words kept me smiling the past couple of days!
The airplane, knocked me in my noggin a couple of times! I heard it hit the ground when hubby got home, I think the neighbors heard it hit the ground! This is still an ongoing process, we are trying smaller toys now!!
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
In case you were wondering...... I got that totally awesome, make a woman feel good workout today, and in only 45 minutes!! Hubby had to be gone (he has a monthly card game with family)! I did it, I went in and began immediately. I think I was breathing heavily and no one wanted to work out around me, but frankly I don't give a dang!!!! I loved it, relieved some stress, hopefully relieved some weight and relieved my mind! Yes, yes, yes a perfect workout!!!
My goal for next week, break 180lbs (oh, my did I post that, did I actually commit that, yes I did) down at least 2lbs. that is a healthy goal. There aren't any crazy dinner plans this weekend, so maybe I can somewhat stay on track!! Maybe some extra food at a card party I may make it to, but other than that things should be easy!!
Can I be completely honest.... It doesn't matter, I have been to this point so I will continue.....
I came home from the gym feeling like "I look good" a total feeling of "I feel sexy" you know what I mean! I don't know if I am feeling the weight loss or if the work out was that good! My stretch jeans are a little baggy maybe that counts as a different fit from my clothes! I'll let you know when they are hanging off of me, cause that is what I am going for!!
More to my goal, workout two time next week, like I did tonight!!!
Happy tales to you!!!!
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I do love this time of year, when it starts to get chilly, not cold, just cool enough for a night fire outside and a good book, a little with the kids and then send them to bed and be alone starring at the fire or my book!! You know what I mean? But, I haven't done this yet!!! I have been doing everything but! Oh and in case you don't know I need a goooooood workout a stress relieving, sweating, hard, crazy woman's workout! The kind where you feel like you are in the gym alone and go strong and leave feeling energized and than have the mostest best night sleep ever!! Does anyone know what I mean or am I just "crazy weird woman, wife, mom? Do you get the whole workout thing?
Just so you know, the next time I wax, I am taking pictures and giving directions! One thing, have it done by a professional first, it gives a much better explanation and then you know what and how you need to do it!! Next time I WAX!
Monday, October 22, 2007
So tonight after work, I could imagine, myself being called Honnnneey!!
Anyway, I did it, I ran the "service track" all alone, all by myself. Ok, so not all alone, I had my assistant General Foreman there to answer my "silly questions".
The gentlemen I work with are awesone, they all did their job and did them extremely well, not on my account, but because they take pride in their work and always do it well. Regardless of why the job was done well and why these are amazing men, thet kept me calm and unstressed all day, and helped me to look like I can handle this position and a little more to do with I have been praying for an entire week about this alone time, and with God's hand I was able to achieve what he has prepared me to do!!! (were yo able to understand what I had just written or did you just need to go over and over and over that to find that I am so thankful for God's help in this position that he even had the men who have been on this job for years help me with this).
I am incredibly thankful for this opportunity and for the reminders of what one of my children used to say!
What an awesome incredible day! Now off to hold the one that doesn't want to be alone and give someone Benadryl and give someone Tylenol and yes I am MOM!!
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Everyone have a wonderful wonderful Saturday night, either sleeping or wide awake!!!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
I have been tagged with 5 interesting things meme from Crooked Eyebrow. At first I was so excited and now, I'm not so sure! I'll try, I think I have already told you the interesting things about me:
1. I performed in a circus!! Really, really, when I was in high school and until I was pregnant with my first son!! I tried trampoline performance, plate spinning, assisting the girl on the bed of REAL NAILS, but my favorite was when I foot juggled!! I practiced hard and took it serious and even got half way good, I think!!
2. I have worked all parts of the restaurant business, I know you know I went to school to be a chef, but did you know I enjoyed being a waitress, bartender, baking and managing, I totally loved all of it! Being a Bartender was an awesome job, kind of like blogging but with immediate comments and cash. My family still likes sloppy Joe's, hot dogs and shells and cheese from a box! Yes they also enjoy the finer things, I think we have found a good balance, or at least one that makes me comfortable!
3. When I was young, I never wanted to get married and I never wanted children. I am so glad God changes our minds for better!! I think I always thought it would hurt to much!
4. I lived on Hilton Head Island in South Carolina, and would not have returned home, but Larry, my husband asked me to marry him!! Need I say more!
5. I have not shaved in 3 years!!!!
I do wax my eyebrows and my legs, all by myself.
I want to play and keep others playing through this "fun" too much thinking game
So I tag:
Sunny Side of the Street
Take 90 West
Glass Half Full
Let's see if they play!!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Monday, October 15, 2007
I think it is so cool that this has created dialogue between people that and things Myself or others would not have talked about before!
I think it is so cool that I have met or at least commented between so many new and amazing people.
I think it is so cool that others seem to speak or write freely about what is going on in their own lives. That others also use it as a venting tool.
I think it is cool that there is USUALLY NOT a mean word in the bunch. The comments are usually encouraging and if someone doesn't agree they try to word it politely and if we don't want to comment, no big whoop!!! (Try having a conversation with nothing to add)!!
I do also think it is so cool that it has opened conversations between myself and others to a new level! Stuff I probably wouldn't have ever spoken out loud (for fear of hurting others) I have and it has created an entirely new level of relationship.
I think it is so cool that I can be sad and weepy one day and post all about it and be happy happy joy joy the next and post on it and most everyone can go with it!!
I think it is cool to be able to journal and find out that others feel the same or not so the same!
I think it is amazing to see so many different people feel the same or different and be honest!!
I think this blogging/new sort of friendship thing is SOOOOOOOOOO COOOOOOL!!!
Thank you everyone for this blogging thing!!
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Yes, it still hurts, and yes I still miss her! Yes, I think about her daily. We were 13 months apart and even closer as friends and as sisters! I think we shared an awesome relationship. I am thankful for the 15 years I had with her and for her 16 years on the earth!
I am still a mom, I am still a wife I am still a child of God I am still a sister to Windy and still a daughter to my mom and dad. I still have so much to be thankful for and so much to look forward to. Life is awesome and can be sad, one thing for sure, God's love is forever and always His love is through it all!!!!!!!