This is just an outlet for me, to be able to get my thoughts out! I am a Woman, Wife and Mommy that also works outside the home! Just me trying to make it all work for the best for my family and myself! Just my journey!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Don't Quit

I found this! This is the poem that helped me through my college, being away from my family and helped me through a time, when I was away from home and I thought I needed to be back at home!
My now, Husband, (then boyfriend) purchased a poster for me to take to college and this is the poem written on it!

The Don’t Quit Poem
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is strange with its twists and turns,

As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow-
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Author unknown

Honestly, this poem was a prayer, for the two and half years I was away from home! I can tell you there were many of times I wanted to quit many of things! I can hear my husband say, "Chrissy read the poem, tell me some part of it"!
With our Wedding Anniversary approaching (15 years) I have been searching my heart and my mind for memories I want to share with him and our children. Good memories, I haven't shared yet! This is a great great memory! I had this posted next to my bunk, I had the bottom, on the wall!
I can hear him say those words to me or I can hear myself reciting this poem, when I need it!
Good stuff!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

The Flowers

The orange lilly's are what caught my eye the other day! Aren't they pretty and vibrant!
So of course I purchased them and brought them home and put them in a vase right on the mantle!!! They just say "Life" Have fun enjoy Life!! Be lively!

I know this picture is blurry, but it reminded me of a hot sun!! Oh how nice a hot sun would be!!

All reminders of my sister!

But don't be concerned, I am doing great and just fine! One rough day, once in a while, is far enough!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Some Days

Some days are tougher than others. Some days are easy!
Yesterday, I had one of those tougher than other days. I really really really missed my sister! What triggered it? Flowers in the grocery store. They weren't even Windy's favorite flower, they were Lilly's! They were orange and vibrant beautiful, full of spring! Easter was her favorite holiday and Orchids were her favorite flower! I haven't seen any orchids yet this year! I so hope for Mother's Day they are out! Anyway, I immediately began to well up with tears. I hate that, I can't control it! It just happens and it happens fast! I couldn't shop any longer, whatever I had, I had and if something was missing we would have to do without! No worries, I bought the flowers! Had to! Came home and sobbed to my friends and to my hubby!
Then I realized! You know, it really doesn't get easier, I just cope better! From time to time, I let down my guard and I don't cope as well!
Honestly, I'd rather have the tougher days than never to have known and loved her! Honestly, 20 years later it still hurts and hurts just like the day she was taken! My heart just aches for my sister!
I know that anyone who has gone through the loss of a loved one can totally relate!
This is my heart!

Friday, April 17, 2009


On Easter, I received a message, on my Facebook page, from a young lady looking for her dad. This young lady was raised by her mom and kept from seeing her dad. This young lady would be considered my second cousin, I think. But, from here on she will be known as my niece!
Sad part is, her dad did want to be apart of her life, he wanted to be there and watch her grow up. Larry and I were given opportunity early in her life, to be a small part of her growing up. We were not allowed to make any reference to who we were and no talk of her dad.
She is 18 now and wants to know about her entire other side of the family. So overwhelming, it is so cool and also makes me a little concerned.
She has already talked to her Dad and they have done some catching up, but 18 years of lost time is alot of time! I have gotten to chat with her too. One thing I have noticed, we never know where to start or how, we get on the phone and either cry or laugh and eventually we get somewhere!
This has been a long time in the waiting. Her Dad knew, when she turned 18 she would find him.
I am so thrilled! I am also a little concerned. Please be praying for our family as we go through this. Please also pray for my niece's family, this is probably a little tough on her mom!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Easter is Always Good

My kids have to wait for me to get home, to celebrate Easter. They don't like it much. Because I didn't tell our youngest, that he had to wait for me, before he comes downstairs on Easter, I received a very disappointing phone call! Oh yea, we do the Easter Bunny and the baskets! Mitchell called me on Sunday morning, I was on my way home, (racing home to be there, before they could get downstairs) and I heard, on the other end of the phone, "Mommy, the Easter Bunny didn't come!" My heart died, I was so sad! Then I, with my quick thinking mommy mind, said "Mitchell, Mommy wasn't there to let the Easter Bunny in and to get your baskets out for him, give me a minute and stay upstairs and I'll get the Easter Bunny there!" Sad part is, if I would have just told hubby that I had everything and had that conversation with the kids, about staying upstairs, until Mama's home, none of this ever would have happened. So instead of this, from last year, I got this from this year!
Quite honestly, that's ok, cause this year, they made sure to smile, because they knew I was at the bottom of the stairs waiting to take pictures!!

Now, the truth shall be known, Easter was still a great day with the family and always is an awesome celebration of Scripture being fulfilled!

I went without sleep, because I love having any holiday at my home and sharing with family and friends! I didn't even miss it! That's how awesome my God is!
My kids and Hubby are great and they obliged Mama in the Easter Egg Hunt, that Hubby Helped to hurry and make happen, along with the Easter Baskets! I love it!
I don't buy very much for the kids for Easter, I really want the day to be about the Truth of Jesus' rising and fulfilling the scriptures. They do get candy and usually a kite, except this year! Instead of buying that grass that floats through the house for the next 4 months and the cheap kite that gets broken sooo quickly, I put 5 singles in the bottom of their baskets and a couple pieces of candy along with their Chocolate Bunny and hiding about 12 eggs, that's their Easter Morning and then Mama starts cooking and Daddy hangs out with the kiddos and shares the candy! I love it!
Then all the fam comes over.

Something really really neat happened this Easter! I'll post about that tomorrow night! Oh man, I can't wait to tell you and post more pictures!

Saturday, April 11, 2009


I could be positive. That wouldn't be the real me right now! I love love love Easter. It is my favorite holiday, after all, it is the day that Jesus Rose Again and DEFEATED satan! I love it, I love that HE rolled the stone away!
It hurts my heart, that this is the choice He needed to make, in order to save us from ourselves! Why is it that we didn't chose properly and chose to follow Him from the start, the one who led us and had and has our back!!! What honestly held our people back from that?
Oh yea, the freedom of choice He gave us from the start!
My God and the Holy Spirit are so loving and such sweetheart's that they don't force themselves on us, like some sort of rape! Seriously, they don't take IT from us, our choices! They love us enough to give us options! I love it, my God is amazing! He Rose He Pushed that Boulder away and He gave Me real life! Real feeling, Real choices, Real love and Real prayer, someone to go to and ask my heart's desire!
That's my amazing GOD! .
I can't tell you how to receive Him, but just to receive Him! I can't tell you where it is that you will meet Him! I can tell you that He is waiting for you and that wherever you want to meet Him, He will be there! No need to set up an appointment long in advance and you don't have to wait for church or until your ready, He is always there and always ready!
There are so many things and thoughts I send to my God! There is even more that I receive from Him! Oh my to even try to put it in words, I couldn't!

Happy Easter! To all! Now Let God Move Your Boulder!

Monday, April 6, 2009


I am back to posting a little better these days, I still love it. Just got a little taken away for a moment, you know that life stuff!

If I could post while driving, I'd have good stuff all the time, memories I want to keep! That would be very unsafe, so maybe I should voice record my thoughts and come back to it! HMmm maybe that's a good idea! Even if it just something to jolt my memory! I think that is the only time I really think on my memories and what's going on. Otherwise it is always what needs to be done right now!!

An update on my FIL- he is doing ok. Going in for Dialysis, 3 times a week and constant check-ups wear on him too! Please continue praying for him, I know you do just wanted to let you know where we are with him.

Thankfully, I think my MIL has now decided she can start to take care of herself again. She has some eye surgery? The day after Easter. Keep her in your prayers too. When I figure out what she is actually having done I'll update.

I should be folding laundry and cleaning the kitchen right now!

Polly and I go in for an assessment at the gym today!
I have to turn in paperwork on Adam today, to the Doctor. Finding a counselor, in this area, that takes my insurance, that has availability in the non-school hours is turning out to be a tough task! So we decided to start with our Pediatrician! Adam has been seeing him since he was born, so I think it was easier for him to go in and chat with the Dr. about it!

My kids and hubby really need to learn how to load their own music on their MP3 players! Uggh!

I am looking forward to camping season!