Hmmm, way off track here, I digress!
Back to the task at hand!
The words "STOP IT" refer to me in so many ways right now!
I could say STOP IT to
planning
cooking
worrying
thinking
worrying (ooops I said that already)
grocery shopping
willing power in
allowing myself to become frustrated
expecting tooooo much from my kiddos
worrying
eating
jealousy
ohhh so many more!
Most of all I need to stop worrying and just wait! My worry comes from not being in control and not being able to make things happen!
This isn't where I was going either! Movin'on Chrissy!!
I am mostly speaking to myself here. But it has been a constant prayer on my heart. I do it and I hate, really HATE, when I do it. I compare myself and allow myself to believe the whole "I'm so busy compared to you" thing!
I tell my friends, not to compare themselves!
I NAG my kids and hubby about the entire comparing thing
and yet here I am!!!!!
Every day, I pray and I receive my answer.
My answer is quite simple: "STOP IT"! I also hear the explanation......your capacity is only your capacity (translation: your busy is only your busy). I realize, for the moment, what I am doing and where I am and I hear the words "your busy is NOT my busy"
I have heard these words spoken recently, not only by myself, but by so many others!
I PRAY AND PRAY AND PRAY! I pray that I won't be so busy and that someone else can be busy or that, I won't be so busy "right now" and I receive that answer.................................................
STOP IT! MY BUSY IS ONLY MY BUSY!
My ocd kicks in when I feel like I'm losing 'control' of the things in my life (as if I really had any to begin with??) For me lately, that is keeping my car clean. It's a small area that I CAN have complete control over. Lord help the person who leaves a gum wrapper wadded up in the cup holder!
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