This is just an outlet for me, to be able to get my thoughts out! I am a Woman, Wife and Mommy that also works outside the home! Just me trying to make it all work for the best for my family and myself! Just my journey!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Please STOP it!!!!!!

OH MY WOW!!  That's my line and will now  be referred to as OMW!!  I really like the word wow and use it alllllll the time, to the point where, when a coworker calls on the roundhouse line and they know it's me on the other end, I hear; "WOW!! Roundhouse Chrissy, OVER!"  SEE that's me, wow!!  All I can say is Wow!!  Does anyone remember Joey, from the sitcom; Give Me a Break?  I do and Joey's lil crazy voice saying "wow" is what I hear when I say it!

Hmmm, way off track here, I digress!
Back to the task at hand!

The words "STOP IT" refer to me in so many ways right now!

I could say STOP IT to

worrying (ooops I said that already)
grocery shopping
willing power in
allowing myself to become frustrated
expecting tooooo much from my kiddos
ohhh so many more!

Most of all I need to stop worrying and just wait!  My worry comes from not being in control and not being able to make things happen!
This isn't where I was going either!  Movin'on Chrissy!!

I am mostly speaking to  myself here.  But it has been a constant prayer on my heart.  I do it and I hate, really HATE, when I do it.  I compare myself and allow myself to believe the whole "I'm so busy compared to you" thing!
I tell my friends, not to compare themselves!
I NAG my kids and hubby about the entire comparing thing
and yet here I am!!!!!
Every day, I pray and I receive my answer.
My answer is quite simple:  "STOP IT"!  I also hear the explanation......your capacity is only your capacity (translation:  your busy is only your busy).  I realize, for the moment, what I am doing and where I am and I hear the words "your busy is NOT my busy"
I have heard these words spoken recently, not only by myself, but by so many others!
I PRAY AND PRAY AND PRAY!  I pray that I won't be so busy and that someone else can be busy or that, I won't be so busy "right now" and I receive that answer.................................................


1 comment:

  1. My ocd kicks in when I feel like I'm losing 'control' of the things in my life (as if I really had any to begin with??) For me lately, that is keeping my car clean. It's a small area that I CAN have complete control over. Lord help the person who leaves a gum wrapper wadded up in the cup holder!