RIP RUNNIN & ROARIN

This is just an outlet for me, to be able to get my thoughts out! I am a Woman, Wife and Mommy that also works outside the home! Just me trying to make it all work for the best for my family and myself! Just my journey!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

ADD or Just Adult?

My head is spinning like a top. So many things going on, I'm just not sure where to start..........
So, I sit down and drink a cup of coffee.
I start a projec or to clean, then I'm distracted, by something else that needs done. I start the something else, the phone rings! I chat and continue with whatever project was near the phone I picked up. I head outside for some fresh air, still chatting on the phone (mental note, I have started and not finished 3 things), I start to sweep the porch, my phone conversation ends, I head inside to put the phone back on the charger and check the clock!
It's time to leave for work!!!!!! 4 projects started and not one completed! I didn't even talk about the laundry that gets washed/dried and folded all while the rest is going on.
I head out the door to work, stopping to turn around and see that I have completed a thing, I've been busy and I can see things have been started, still nothing complete.

On my drive to work, I think of more projects that need to be done and onnnn goes the list!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Where's Your Wedding Ring.............

Where's my wedding ring?
are you stinking serious?
I can't wear my wedding ring to work!! Uh-hum, don't I "act married"?
I know you have heard about my children and I know you know my husband by name, even though you haven't EVER met him!
That being said, I know I don't need to explain myself!
I know I am safe in my marriage and with my sharing to my partner!
My marriage and my relationship with my husband may not make any sense to anyone else! My marriage and my relationship with my husband is beautiful and right! right for us, not right for you or your friends, right for us!!!!!!!
We do argue,fuss and fight with each other
We even curse at one another from time-to-time, OK a lil more than a lil!
I stopped trying to make sense of it for others, many years ago
We began making sense of our relationship together a loooong time ago!
I started not caring what you thought a looooong time ago!
I know my marriage doesn't suit you!
My marriage suits me just fine!
So because I'm female and "follow the rules" and I don't wear my wedding ring to work........it doesn't make me any less committed to him! I follow the rules, just like the men at my work! I have never asked them, "why don't you wear your wedding ring" or "where's your ring"!
For those that have asked, here is my ring:

I'm thankful, I'm never asked if I am married! That says, I do portrait the image that I AM married!
PLEASE, STOP ASKING AND STOP ACTING LIKE, BECAUSE I'M FEMALE I SHOULD BREAK THE RULES AND WEAR MY RING! I'M COMMITTED, I WEAR IT IN MY LIFE!
STOP ASKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Some Songs Trigger My Memory

Every time I hear this song:



I picture this kid:


Singing along in the truck, with his Dad! That lil voice
"oh where oh where can my baby be" awww!
It was so darn cute!


Hard to believe this is the same kid!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

He Makes Me Laugh

We finally got out on a date!
There is so much to talk about and we don't know where to start!
Yes, we talk everyday about the kids and work! We talk about what the kids need to do and where they should be right now!
We talk about babysitters and schedules for the kids!
Sometimes, we even talk about what's going on at work, only if time allows! Our family is first and there are alot of things to take care of, to make sure they are taken care of properly!
We made it past all that stuff and now WE can talk! We can again share dreams, desires, goals, strength and encouragement! Prayers, we can share our prayers!
In our life, right now, there are very few moments we can share any of these, while standing in the same location!
We got to do that! We got to share, goals, desires, strengths, encouragement, prayers, thoughts, frustrations, sadness, anger! We got to share it all face-to-face! It was beautiful, I loved every moment of it!
When we returned home, from our date, I wanted to snap a pic of us on our "date-night"
This is what I got
:


He just couldn't be serious!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

It's The Boy

This kids hair is high maintenance!

It's crazy. I thought it would be my daughter who needed the extra time and the extra product. Sooo not how it turned out (so far)!
Mom, I'm out of: mousse, gel, hairspray. I think I hear one of these statements everyday! I used to be on top of the product in our house, we even had back up! Now, I can't keep up.
But he likes it and I like that he likes his hair and is taking time on himself.
Guess, I'll have to buy more product, lots more, when I go out today!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

God is an option, Failure is a choice!

Failure means end-all. Giving up is a choice!
Failure means, I tried and I tried and I tried and God gave up on me, so I give up!
Problem: God doesn't give up!
Giving up, means I tried a little and gave up, it means I chose to give up!
Failure is so the end-all be-all.
I know where God stands on failure, He says that failure is not an option, it is only the opportunity to take it again!!
I have failed in absolutely nothing, God has never given up on me!
I have given-up in many things, I have given up on me, more times than I'd like to admit!
I retake the test in waay more things than I care to talk about!
In many life choices, failure is not an option! In many life-choices, giving-up is an option!
If I failed it means that God has given up! So that means failure isn't an option! It means that giving up is a choice, it's an option, a choice and a reality! If I give up on me I take away God's choice to succeed in me!
Hard words to swallow!
Failure isn't an option, God said so! Giving up is an option, man said so!
I always have a choice!

FINALLY............

Make no mistake, this isn't the end!
This is the point where I finally get to schedule my full body massage!!
Back in OCTOBER, I started a new life-style change. One where I would lose weight and not beat up on myself for not following all of the rules, all the time! A journey where, day-by-day, I chose a little better! My journey, so far, has had good and bad choices and lots of reminding myself, not to beat-up on me! Once the beating starts the journey ends, for me! So this journey is faaaaarrrr different from all of my other weight-loss journeys! I feel like this one is serious and on-track, even though, it isn't timely!
Anywho, back to my FULL BODY MASSAGE.....I promised myself that when I lost 20 pounds, I would schedule a massage! I did it, I finally did it! I have been fighting this last three pounds for months. I posted awhile back about sabotaging myself and that post spoke right back to me, day in and day out! I'm so thankful it was placed on my heart to post. That post made a difference, it helped me keep my commitment to myself.
I'm excited and concerned. I've lost 20 pounds, that's an accomplishment, right? I've got more than 20 more to go (I want to see where I am after the next 20 and make my decision then), my personal trainer says a total of 35 pounds lost would be fine, when I went to her, I had a different number in mind, so we settled on 40 pounds and then a reevaluation!
But hey, after my next 20 pounds, I promised myself a get-away, a weekend get-away! I think maybe to visit family or something, but a get-away is something I haven't allowed myself to do, so a get-away for the next 20 pounds.
After My full body massage---------HERE WE GO!!!!!!!!!!!