Back In Business

We are wired up again!  It may only be a lap top for now, but it is a computer!  I am still searching for the right desktop for our family (ahem, with the right price tag).  I really don't like the idea that they can "carry" the Internet around with them, to any room in the house, let alone the "dropping" factor!  For now, it will do.  Before school is back in session, a desktop is a necessity!

I have pictures to share and thoughts rolling in my head and even a few journal entries that I have recorded.  I don't know if I will get around to sharing them on my blog, they may have just been entries and thoughts for me, I'm still going through them and pondering them.  Trying to figure out what exactly it is I am supposed to take away from them!

Mitchy has been fighting some, what I would call, health issues.  He has been poked, prodded, run through machinery, and asked bazillions of questions.  Now, we have all the test results back, up to this point and all of them only show; he does fight migraine headaches (he's only 9) and we are thankful it isn't anything worse and we pray this is something he will grow out of.  The other results show, NOTHING!  I'm thankful for the nothing, but I wonder if it isn't still lurking in the background and if it isn't going to sneak up on us one day, makes my heartache and leaves me with a ton of concern.  What I am left with is the words "wait and see", I think every parent really hates those words, I don't want to "wait and see", I want treatment or a clear, concise, it's nothing..........yes, all tests show that it is nothing and that's what I have to go on. Then, the Doctor threw in those words "if the symptoms come back", my hope was deflated!  We pray it's nothing and that the symptoms don't come back and we continue to pray healing over him and for the migraines to be gone.  I know I need to get to the point where I'm not praying for what isn't there, where I am not praying please don't let the symptoms come back, but as a mom, that's my prayer for now!
I know you all understand where my heart and head are on this one.....

The good thing about having a computer is the amount of stuff that got done, the bad part is there wasn't a release for me, I'm not big on TV so I look forward to my Internet time and especially getting my thoughts out on a screen and the positive reinforcement and encouragement I receive from that, it also helps me to think that, maybe I can help someone else with my own realities!  Selfish........yep, I think so, but maybe just maybe in some aspects it isn't so selfish!

Anyhow, selfish, unselfish, release or no release......read or unread, I am back in business and happy to be that way!