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This is just an outlet for me, to be able to get my thoughts out! I am a Woman, Wife and Mommy that also works outside the home! Just me trying to make it all work for the best for my family and myself! Just my journey!

Saturday, June 26, 2010

DREAMING

I have heard many people, mostly women, talk about their dream house.  I've heard about cutting out pictures, usually out of magazines, of what you want in your home.  It sounds so cool and like a great way to dream and bring it all together.  It sounds like a great visual to begin bringing a dream to life. 
For years I have pondered the cutting out of pictures and I have even tried it.  I never have actually gotten around to the "cutting" part.  I enjoy looking at the home magazines and have found many things that would be cool or that I could enjoy, but never anything that I could pinpoint that I wanted for our home, nothing that said the words "dream home" to me.

This bothered me, it bothered me that I didn't know what I want.  I began to really research myself  and find out what I wanted, after all, it's always been me to know exactly know what I want, or at least to know that I don't know what I want and be searching for the answers! 

I began to question myself and find my own answers, but when it came to what I thought I really wanted, the more I realized I didn't have specifics for a home.  As I went through individual rooms and ideas, I realized all of my answers went to the same place.  First, the answers for specific details always went to my husband, what would he want and what does he like (this isn't a bad thing).  Larbo has always had an eye for design and a heart for beauty in the home, couple that with his understanding of functionality and walla.....we have a beautiful home and excellent ideas.  Second thing I realized, my answers always went to feeling.  I couldn't define a design for a dream home for our family, but I could define the feeling and the desires I have that I want my dream home to encourage and to help produce. 

My reality, I don't have pictures of a dream home and it really doesn't matter the size or the style of my home and my dream home doesn't even have an idea of square footage, it doesn't even have a specific amount of rooms or bathrooms.  I do have a few luxuries that would be nice to have but nothing that would have to be there to make it my dream home.

I like what I found, I like where this went and I enjoyed discovering myself and my reality that I have always known what I wanted.

I want a home that is family oriented and encourages dreamers with desires along with drive to get it.  My dream home is filled with love and peace.  It is filled with strong discipline and clear concise expectations, not over the top discipline or expectations, just enough to help with the proper direction for each individual in our home.  My dream home is a place to build love of family and friendships.  It's a place that is welcoming and kind.

More of my reality, Larbo and I have my dream home and we always have, even when I lived in my 1000 sq. ft. ranch.  God granted me my dream home long before I realized what it was that I wanted, long before I could put it into words!  It is the feeling and the strong desire I dream about for us that is my dream home.  I'm living in it!   My dream home isn't in the pictures of a magazine, it's in the celebrations, memories and the photo albums of the photos we have taken over the years and in the photos and the celebrations to come, it's the feeling I look for when I dream and when I wake up from my dream, I'm living it!  Even with the trials we have faced, we are still in my dream home.

The beauty of this is, Larbo has the functionality and the specifics figured and I will still look to him for the picture perfect home......right now, right where we are is my dream home, it's the feeling I look for in my dream home and not the pictures of specifics cut out from a magazine......

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