Random

I am back to posting a little better these days, I still love it. Just got a little taken away for a moment, you know that life stuff!

If I could post while driving, I'd have good stuff all the time, memories I want to keep! That would be very unsafe, so maybe I should voice record my thoughts and come back to it! HMmm maybe that's a good idea! Even if it just something to jolt my memory! I think that is the only time I really think on my memories and what's going on. Otherwise it is always what needs to be done right now!!

An update on my FIL- he is doing ok. Going in for Dialysis, 3 times a week and constant check-ups wear on him too! Please continue praying for him, I know you do just wanted to let you know where we are with him.

Thankfully, I think my MIL has now decided she can start to take care of herself again. She has some eye surgery? The day after Easter. Keep her in your prayers too. When I figure out what she is actually having done I'll update.

I should be folding laundry and cleaning the kitchen right now!

Polly and I go in for an assessment at the gym today!

I have to turn in paperwork on Adam today, to the Doctor. Finding a counselor, in this area, that takes my insurance, that has availability in the non-school hours is turning out to be a tough task! So we decided to start with our Pediatrician! Adam has been seeing him since he was born, so I think it was easier for him to go in and chat with the Dr. about it!

My kids and hubby really need to learn how to load their own music on their MP3 players! Uggh!

I am looking forward to camping season!

My head is going to explode!

Here it is as of today:

I work alllllll of the upcoming holidays! Not til afternoons, but that leaves little time for celebration, like I enjoy with my family. This is what I get for trying to go beyond!

I was and am sooo oooo ooo thankful that I made it home last night, safe and sound. Hindsight says I really should have gotten a hotel room. 2 1/2 hours later after leaving work says I was sooo happy to be home in one piece! I haven't ever prayed with so much intensity while driving! God is GOOD!

It is winter in NW Indiana!

Why did we get rid of the snowplow on the truck? (something about plowing being hard on the truck and damaging it, whatever)

Shoveling is not so much fun, or as my Hubby would say, Not-so-much-so-good!!

I read the sweetest email tonight, it actually made me cry! It was one of those that everyone passes around! I really don't like crying at those!

That reminds me I need to order more meds! I take daily scripts to fight depression and anxiety, I know alot of us are on them and find it to be a good thing. It did take me a long time to admit it is a script I need and that it helps me just to be me. Much of the need is associated with post-traumatic-stress-disorder (everyone can relate). Because I can never know when it is going to hit hard, I am on a strict script for probably the rest of my life. Not something that has been easy to admit. One woman explained it to me as though it were a script for glasses or diabetes meds, and you know she was right, I do need these and I am now ok with saying that!

I have toooooooootally fell off the diet wagon! Exercising is great, but when I am not eating right it sure does take a toll! (The cruise added 3 pounds also).

I am not sure about work, I know I can do it, but I don't know if I will help the employees any better than the supervisor they have! I really believe they have been beat up on for a long time and hope to help rebuild morale, but I am worried that things won't go the way I want!

I sure do love waking up with my children in the morning and helping them to get the right start to their day. This is something I truly miss!

I can always here these words coming out of my mouth: I was a stay-at-home mom for 12 years!!! This is one thing I am sooooooooo proud of.

I just wish I could make my children tell me what is going on all the time! They came home with not so great progress reports and I couldn't help but ask myself: How am I failing them to make them fail? and discovered that they just needed even more strict boundaries, it is not only the parents but also the kids!

Too much rambling sorry! I do have a heavy mind and a very heavy heart! I think we all ask ourselves constantly, "am I doing the right thing?" either for myself, my marriage, my family, my friends, my life!

Gosh, am I the only one who goes through this stupid stuff!?